It’s been a very emotional few days. I tried to forget about the incident with Eli’s surgery, and I made sure not to talk about it out loud at home, but I was so angry at the dentist (and staff) for treating us so poorly. Now I am very worried about Noah having his wisdom teeth removed, which needs to happen quickly.
Obviously, we won’t be going to that dentist, which means I have to find a new dentist. After what happened to Eli I could probably study to death and still feel like I couldn’t make the right decision! Noah is already an adult and can make his own decisions on this matter, but at 19 years old, I feel he will still tend to rely on his parents’ help.
I was also very emotional about Noah moving out. He’s moving on Friday! I wish I had more time to prepare for this. Jerry and I are both feeling the effects of having adult children (well, Eli turns 18 in a few weeks). OMG, just typing this brings tears to my eyes.
When you’re pregnant, everyone will tell you that time flies by and you want to be able to be more present in the moment every day as your baby grows. Now I feel like this is the best advice I can give to new parents; they will nod and smile at me, just like Jerry and I did to those who gave us the same advice, and then they will give it to other new parents 18 years later Offers the same advice. I hate that we don’t really realize how fast time flies until our kids are older and their childhood feels like it went by in the blink of an eye.
Okay, that’s it! I’m going to make a long story short because I’m helping Noah pack his stuff, and boy – he has so much more stuff than you think.
As far as my weight goes, there’s not much to report:
Last week my score was 141.2, today my score is 140.6. I’d like to see it go down faster, but I know I’m making the right choice, so that’s what I can do.
I remember when I worked at Curves (a fitness center), the women there would talk about how difficult it is to lose weight after 40. I never really believed this (of course, I was in my early 20s at the time), and I did wonder if it was true. Whether it’s lifestyle or aging, hormones, menopause and all that fun stuff. Probably a combination.
However, I don’t feel like I’m in that moment. Earlier this year I lost weight without any problems. However, I know I’m not as active as I used to be. I’ve been working on large projects at home for several years. It wasn’t an intentional workout, but I lifted a lot of heavy stuff, went up and down ladders a million times, walked back and forth to the garage, etc. I’m still doing some stuff, but on a much smaller scale and less active.
Now that Noah is moving out, I will have a spare bedroom to work from. I know I want to put my crafts there, but I’ll probably paint and possibly replace the carpet. It’s a fairly small room (9ft x 9ft I think) so it doesn’t feel completely overwhelming. But it’s fun to think about the possibilities. It reminded me of when the boys were little and they shared a room with bunk beds. (tears again here)
As far as my weight goes this week, I’ll mostly continue to do what I’ve been doing. I have been avoiding sweets and am working on portion control. I still run every morning (albeit just around the block). I could do more, but for now, I’m happy with what I’ve done.
Well, I better get back and pack before I make dinner. I’m not sure how much I’ll be posting over the next week or so because with Noah moving I’m going to be very busy – and very emotional, haha.