I’m pretty sure today is Tuesday. I’m even relieved because there’s only one day until Wednesday’s weigh-in, hahaha. I knew I wasn’t going to do well this week (well, it’s actually been two weeks since my last weigh-in). Things have become so unusual and the past few weeks have been a challenge.
Jerry had to work on a special project at work, again temporarily changing his schedule (while we adjusted to our new schedule, of course). Nothing they asked him to do was anything like what he promised when he took the new position last December. Things have now returned to normal (including his schedule), but it gave him enough insight to reconsider the position.
He is being interviewed in another department today. It will be a big leap for him, but he said he really wants to learn something new. This will also give him experience he can use outside of the factory – if something happens and he needs to find work elsewhere, it will give him skills he can use in a variety of settings. He said he would be happy if he got the position but not upset if he didn’t.
The biggest change is that he’ll be returning to a chaotic work schedule — only it’ll be the day shift instead of the night shift he’s been working for three years. After everything he’s done to get the new schedule he has now, he says he kinda misses the longer days! He’d rather work three to four 12-hour shifts per week than five 8-hour shifts (which makes sense – it’s nice to have three to four days off per week!). He also misses having random days off during the week, not just weekends.
Anyway, I’m just writing this because Jerry has been working longer hours the past few weeks, which has affected our eating habits. Dinner for dinner, staying up late for dinner, snacking after meals…habits I’m trying to break! I’m not surprised to see my weight gain today.
I think I was around 143 last time and 146 today. I’m not happy about it, but I can’t pretend I didn’t know this was going to happen when I fell back into some old habits. There are no excuses here – only responsibility.
A few days ago, my friend Emily texted me asking if I would be interested in running the Detroit Marathon with her this fall. After I laughed and said no (which she totally expected), I started thinking maybe I wanted to start running again. (I’m not talking about running around the block, that’s more for mental health than physical health.) I certainly have no interest in running long distance again, but if I can get back into shape enough to run 3-5 miles, that would be great Okay a few times a week.
The next day I saw a movie on Netflix called Tyson’s Run. I’m sure I won’t explain it very well, so here’s the trailer (below). While I usually prefer thrillers and horror movies, occasionally I enjoy a “feel-good” story – and this one was great. I don’t know if it’s the movie’s problem or my own emotions that have become more and more emotional over time, hahaha.
Watching that movie inspired me a lot and I came up with the idea of running again. Jerry asked me if I missed running, and the answer was I missed running *when I was in a running mood*. Running when I’m out of shape is no fun; unfortunately, the only way for me to get into running shape is to run! Over the past few years, I just didn’t want to deal with the discomfort of training. However, I really miss the feeling of being back inside after a long day of running.
Sometimes I’ll go for a run and I’ll feel pain in my leg muscles, my lungs needing more oxygen, and it’s hard to think ahead to how good I’m going to feel when I get back in shape. It’s really hard to be patient with diet and exercise, isn’t it? If I really wanted to find the joy of running again, I had to work on getting back in shape. This takes time and patience. I already know what I need to do if I want to get back out there – I just have to do it with the right attitude.
I’ll think about it again this week. In the meantime, though, I’ll state my goals for this week: I’m going to do a “test run” this week to see just how bad I am! Hahaha. I’m pretty sure I can run three miles, but I’m 100 percent sure it won’t be easy. I couldn’t care less about my rhythm, but I’m curious about how I feel. Then I can decide if I want to commit at this time in my life 😉